So I am finally home from San Francisco after 4 grueling days of being without both Luca and Ari. Long story short I had practically moved in down there and needed Philip to bring 4 suitcases to get my stuff, Ari's and Luca's stuff and all my breast milk home. It has been an emotional day. First with seeing Luca and then with seeing Ari. Ari is 3 lbs 11 oz and looks so healthy. He immediately opened his eyes when I arrived and grabbed my hands in a vice grip as a so happy to see you mama and don't you dare leave me. I held him for 1.5 hours and I was actually able to touch his hair and him without him getting overstimulated. It was wonderful. I cried when I had to put him back to pump. It is just not normal to have to leave without your baby. I want to take my son home even more now that I am home. It is just not normal to have a baby and be without your baby. It is heartache for me and frankly I hope it doesn't last much longer. I hope for the days to fly by so I can have him home with me but thank goodness he is so close now and I can be with him and Philip and Luca.
I love that top picture! He just looks so snuggly and content... so relaxed and natural...like there's nowhere in the world he'd rather be (which I'm sure there isn't!)
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